So long, Arizona. It’s been one great year.

Mogollon Rim, Arizona - Sweetly Tattered

This move has held a load of mixed emotions. One day, I will be excited for a new home, new life, and totally different experience. Then, the next day, I’m tearing up because I’m going to miss friends, our house, and this beautiful state I have grown to love dearly.

Mogollon Rim, Payson Arizona

Arizona - Sweetly Tattered

It’s like my heart can’t make up its mind. I know this is what we need to do and this is what I want to do, but I cry when I actually think about getting on that plane and flying out of here for what could be the very last time. My heart literally hurts and my eyes well with tears when I think of the dear friends we have grown to love so much and their children that have become my daughters’ closest friends of all time. We actually have to say goodbye? How can it hurt this much when we have only been here a year?

Mountains of Arizona

Payson

I think I have been suppressing these feelings every day. Despite the boxes and the packed up things, I hardly think about the move. I don’t want to really think about it because I don’t want to cry. I don’t want to miss people. I don’t want to leave so much that I love. I don’t want to have to continue to explain to my daughter why her friends are no longer in her life…how the very people she can’t stop talking about and can’t wait to see, she may never see again. It really hurts.

Payson, Arizona

Even though this may seem like a totally unorganized outpouring of random thoughts and feelings (because it is), it is something that I need to do. I need to write these feelings down and finally get them out of my head. I need to let the tears flow, even though I have worked so hard to hold them in. I need to embrace the changes that I know are for our good and let it hurt.

Because, if it didn’t hurt, then I believe there would be a problem with this past year. If it didn’t hurt, we wouldn’t have made friends and touched souls. But we did. And now we have to leave them. And yes, it hurts a whole lot. But I am so very thankful for the time we had with them. I am deeply grateful for the mountains I saw daily (and lived in), the Ponderosa Pine Trees that stole my heart from the first time I saw them, the Elk and Javelina that ate the apples from the tree in our yard, the stars that twinkled so bright, and the moon that lit up our path. I still get to see those same stars and moon where we will be now. So, I know it’s going to be okay.

Arizona - Sweetly Tattered

Tonto Rim Christian Camp

Arizona scenery

Tonight, we drove around for a bit, stopping to take pictures and say goodbye to our home in Arizona. I don’t want to forget the paths we walked daily or the road that brought us to our house. I know, in a few months, I will long to see  the sights I have seen for a whole year. Thankfully, I have these pictures to look back on and reminisce a bit. It will be so nice to be able to show Vivian her very first home and I know Myra will love to see pictures of this very special year. 

Tonto Rim - Arizona

Camps in Arizona

8 months old

Sweetly Tattered

Sister photos

Vivian

In the end, I’m sad to leave but excited for the next phase of the Morter family’s life adventures. I am filled with gratitude for our beautiful year in Arizona. I will never forget it.

Mogollon Rim

Morter family

Morter

P.S. I will be taking the next week or so off from blogging. The girls and I are leaving tomorrow morning to spend a week in Pennsylvania (with Gamma and Poppa) while Ryan finishes packing up and drives all the way to Ohio! (about 35 hours…yikes!) I am looking forward to this little break where I can process everything that is going on and relax before the unpacking begins! I will be back soon to let you know how everything is going and get back to sharing tid bits of our life with you! 

8 thoughts on “So long, Arizona. It’s been one great year.

    1. Thank you so much! I had never been to Arizona before and was so shocked to discover how beautiful it is. It is definitely worth a trip!

  1. I feel your pain. The mountains in CA had the same effect on me. I am glad you are allowing yourself to mourn the loss…that is healthy. In the meantime, God will give you a new love to fill your aching heart.
    Love you! Gram

  2. Leaving is always hard. I have done it numerous times and although I was always excited about the road ahead it was hard to leave the comforts behind. I know that you and Ryan will be a blessing where you are going and the Lord will send you and your children new friends to love as well. This week I had the same experience with friends leaving and it has been difficult but a learning experience as well. Joy and sadness in one big lump in my heart. Know that there are many people praying for you and anticipating your arrival.

    1. Thanks for the encouragement. I have to keep reminding myself of the people that we already love so dearly that we get to do life with again. It is hard but exciting.

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